Tuesday, May 1, 2012
Unit 6 Practice
The loving-kindness exercise is getting easier for me the more that I do it. One problem that I've had recently is that I've been putting so much effort into helping others that I haven't been focusing on and loving myself. Even though I love being there for my friends and my Pagan group, I've been putting my own emotional and spiritual needs aside. I know that in order to be the healer that I want to be, I must reconnect with my spiritual side. Even though I don't feel like I've let that part of me go undeveloped, my spiritual side is what has always driven my decisions in life. I know one problem with this is that I don't have as much time as I used to and with school and studying it's hard for me to switch from the academic side to the spiritual side. Even though I know earning a degree is important for my future, my healing path does not rely so much on academic study as it does spiritual connection. To be successful in my Reiki business, I know that I need to focus more on the spiritual aspects of my life instead of the material. Anymore, leading my Pagan group has been feeling more academic than spiritual and that's not where I've been meaning to go with it. The group relies on me to post information about various subjects involving Paganism and I feel that it's starting to tear up my spiritual self. This week has made me realize that the group is starting to feel more like a chore than a social group and I think that I need to step away from it and let everyone else in the group learn by themselves instead of relying on me to bring the information to them. Rather than looking to books and articles for information to share with my Pagan friends, I need to focus more on meditation and connecting with my own Gods. I hear Frigga calling to me to pick up my runes and crystal ball again and practice Reiki once more.
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ReplyDeleteI enjoyed reading your post!! I feel the same way, it seems that I have trouble telling my family no when they need me to babysit. I have two nieces that have little girls and they single moms. They seem to call on me when in trouble and want me to keep their girls for a week or two. The one little girl will be 3 this month , the other is 10 months. I can never tell them no because I feel guilty afterwards. But, with my RA it is really hard to chase after little ones.
Like you I also feel that my life has always been guided by my spiritual side even when I wasn’t aware of it. I think that many people spent a lot of their energy in helping and comforting others leaving little for them. It can at times be difficult to find a middle ground that allows for sufficient energy for the individual as well as their loved ones. It seems that you have a clear understanding of the second part of this assignment "One cannot lead another where one has not gone himself" and I think you will have great success in the future. Thanks for the well written and interesting blog.
ReplyDeleteJay