Personal Thoughts

After some recent developments this week, I feel that I have to write something that's been bothering me for the past couple of days. This is a personal post instead of the one that I'm supposed to write this week (which I will get to once I'm able to get this bit off of my chest). I got sick this week with a sore throat, earache, and fatigue. From what I've learned in Reiki, for something like this to come upon me without any physical explanation (no one in my family got sick) means that there is a blockage in my throat chakra. Something that I'm not admitting the truth about and refusing to listen to. Combine this with the dreams and you'll understand why it's impacted me the way it has. After studying one of my dreams, I discovered that my spiritual self has been trying to tell me something that I've been choosing to ignore and it has to do with my career path. I joined at Kaplan in order to find a new career that will give me financial stability in something somewhat related to my field. I also did it to finally have a bachelor's degree to my name that everyone within a 10-mile radius will indicate that I need in order to succeed in life. I've loved my time at Kaplan and I'm glad to be earning my degree. However, I know that a career in Nutrition Science is not really what I want. I want to be an herbalist and Reiki practitioner. I thought about combining this with Nutrition and many would argue that they would go well together. This was my plan from the beginning. Then I found out that after graduation from Kaplan I will have to continue my education for a while if I am to become a Registered Dietitian. After that point, who knows if I would be able to start my business right away? I would probably have to work in a hospital for a while to build my career and experience first. I'd be lying to myself if I were to say that I would have enough time to also study herbalism. And that's exactly what I've been telling myself. My fear of a lack of a stable career has made me choose things that I really don't want out of my career. Doing this Meeting Aesclepius exercise this week has proven difficult for me. The person that I thought about was my late grandmother whom I've tried my hardest over the past 7 years to prevent thinking about. If she were alive today, she would be questioning my intentions with my career and tell me that I need to follow my calling and not what other people want from me. My dream told me that I can only reach my success and goals if I follow my spirit and my heart- rather than letting others direct me where to go. People in my life don't seem to believe that I'll make it as a Reiki therapist and herbalist and think that what's best for me is to continue my education to be a dietitian. Now I realize that if I were to do that, I would become so caught up in what the field of nutrition directs its practitioners instead of making my focus about spiritual and herbal practices. I have no doubt that going to Kaplan was a good thing for me to earn my degree because I can use that to go to a great herbal school in the future. Not surprisingly, after I came to this personal truth, my sore throat and earache have begun to heal and I can actually talk again. No one needs to comment on this post. It's just something that I felt I needed to write and this is the convenient way for me to do it. Thanks to all who read all of it.